Dear so and so. I have so many things I’d like to say to you, but don’t know how to say them. I don’t want to say the wrong words and upset you. Yet, I don’t know what the right words are to say. I guess for one thing, I can tell you…..
Backspace, backspace, backspace…..delete.
Hey! How’s it going? I just want to let you know that I have something heavy on my heart that I want to share with you. Remember that time……
Life is hard and I make stupid mistakes. I speak before I should. I jump before looking to see if it’s wise to. I think I have it all figured out and then suddenly realize that I don’t know anything. Anyway, what I need to say to you is that I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to overstep my bounds or make everything a mess. I hope you forgive me and see that I’m a just a dumb human.
Words are hard to deliver, especially if you don’t know if the recipient is willing to accept them. How many times do you write a novel to someone and know those are the words that you should not send them? Sometimes you’ll hear the voice to delete the whole rant and then other times you hit send and then kick yourself for being such a butt.
But sometimes you feel a great need to send someone a message, not to be nasty or nosey, but out of urgency. Even those can be misunderstood. I just pray that when that happens, that they will see I’m not against them. If things are quiet on the other end, I may not really realize what’s going on. I have no control over anyone else; I can’t make them listen to me. Obedience is hard and sometimes you don’t understand why the Holy Spirit prompts you to say something, especially when things result differently than you expected. God I did what you asked…..help them to receive what you want them to hear.