Balancing Act

I’ve been reflecting on this thought for a week or so.  I used to be pretty bad about putting all my thoughts and energies on one thing or person.  I don’t know if it’s age or experience that has taught me that it’s best not to do that.  When I was first married, everything I did was for my husband.  I was constantly trying to create the perfect marriage, relationship, and be the best wife.  The downside to that was that anytime he was late coming home or had other things he had to do, I felt alone and disappointed.  My identity was wrapped up in our marriage.  So without him, I felt like I was nothing.  I did the same thing when my son was born.  I strived to be the best mother.  I wanted to be available to him at all times.  After doing this for years, I suddenly felt disconnected from anyone who wasn’t a parent. I’ve consistently moved from different people or things to focus all my energy on until the past few years.  I feel that I balance my life pretty well now, I have time with God, my husband, my son, myself, and with others.  It is so easy to become completely consumed by your job, a ministry, a hobby, or a person.  But, it isn’t wise because if that something or someone disappears, then you feel devastated.  God has taught me so much within these last five years, I’m not sure if it’s just that I’m listening more or just experiences have led me to notice things differently.  Either way, I’ve learned that life is more full when all your eggs aren’t in one basket.