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My Constant

I have never been a fan of change. I’m a creature of habit and when things tailspin out of my routine, I get upset and nervous. When I was a kid, I was super anxious prior to school starting because I didn’t know if I’d like my teacher or if I’d have classes with my friends. Stepping into the unknown has always been hard for me. I think most of us, can say that. When I went away to college my freshman year, I was both excited to be away from home and nervous to leave. I wanted to gain some independence from my parents and experience the world for myself. On the way down to college, I got sick. I couldn’t eat, I was scared that I wouldn’t adjust. But, I knew I had to adjust. Deep down I wanted change, I just was unsure of how much that change would cost me. It took about a month to get over being homesick and to adjust to my new surroundings. Once I adjusted, I didn’t want things to change. But, change is inevitable. After 2 1/2 years of being away at college, it was time to come back home. I didn’t want to come back, but I knew I had to. My time there was done. I got just as sick going back home as I did when I left home.

This weekend, our pastor announced a time for change for him. It was time for him to go back home. I know many people are scared of the things they can’t see on the horizon. I understand that, I’m in the same boat. We get attached to people, we don’t want them to leave, we’ve let our guard down and trusted someone. We tell ourselves when someone is leaving that we will never allow someone to get that close again. All of us are subject to attachments, but often separation occurs and we have to adjust. But, there are constants in our life that we have to remind ourselves about.

The bible says “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.” (Hebrews 13:8) Jesus is a constant, man is not. We have to remember to trust him. He hasn’t changed. Joshua 1:9 says, “Have I not told you? Be strong and have strength of heart! Do not be afraid or lose faith. For the Lord your God is with you anywhere you go.” God is always with us, he hasn’t left us. Remember that when you are afraid. Ecclesiastes 3 reminds us that there is a time for everything under Heaven. Right now is a time of change, but remember again what is constant. Where is your hope? The future is unknown to us, but step into it because there is a guide to be by yours and my side. Romans 15:13 says “Our hope comes from God. May He fill you with joy and peace because of your trust in Him. May your hope grow stronger by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

It’s ok to be afraid, just tighten your grip on the Lord’s hand. He’s there. He’s constant. father-child-holding-hands-e1327959452859

 
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Posted by on August 11, 2014 in Spiritual Reflections

 

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Hanging up the Fishnets

I never imagined myself becoming so passionate about a sport.  I’ve always enjoyed playing sports and being competitive.  But, I never was actually part of a team before until I decided to try out roller derby.  I remembered watching roller derby on television when I was a kid.  I was really fascinated by it.  Tough girls taking hits and giving them back, falling down and getting back up.  My favorite motto as a child was, “Girls can do anything boys can do, only better.”

About two years ago, I noticed a friend of mine from high school was playing roller derby.  I thought to myself, “that’s really awesome.”  After a few months, I decided to shoot her an email and tell her that I was impressed with her playing this tough sport and thought it was really cool of her.  She sent me a message back and said I should check into the local team, that I would really love it.  I was reluctant to do that.  I was afraid of being unaccepted and feeling out of place.  But, I kept thinking it would be really cool to check it out and see what it was all about.  My friend played for a team that was an hour away and she invited me to come watch a scrimmage, so I could get an idea of what was involved with the sport.  My family went and watched the scrimmage and it made me want to try it out even more.  I spoke with my friend afterwards and she asked me what I thought.  I told her it was amazing, full of action, and looked exciting.  She told me that the local team was having a recruitment night the end of the month and invited me to go check it out.

After talking with my husband and a close friend of mine about it, they both encouraged me to go for it.  What did I have to lose?  So, I went on recruitment night and felt welcomed by the team members.  The idea of actually participating in the sport fueled my passion.

The exercise and drills we did in practice was intense. It felt strangely satisfying to put on tights, fishnets, or knee high socks and sweat more than you ever thought you could, to learn to maneuver on skates quickly, hit a girl as hard as you could, skate faster, endure through tons of pain.  The encouragement from the other girls was enough to help you stay focused and determined.  I fell in love with roller derby.  There was so much to learn about it and there was more than I imagined that went into doing it.

After being in it for two months, we were preparing ourselves for our first bout.  In just that little bit of time, I was excited about actually getting to play.  A week before my first bout, I ended up breaking my elbow in practice.  I thought I had just sprained it, but ended up going to the doctor and found out I broke it.  It was disappointing that I was unable to play, but I still went to the bout and cheered on my new team.

I took a month off from derby to heal up.  I wasn’t sure if I should return to the team. I didn’t feel I had enough to offer them.  But, a teammate contacted me and was seeing how I was doing.  She encouraged me to come back, so I did.

After coming back and getting more involved, I found many reasons to love and appreciate this sport.   I developed great friendships with people I would have never met otherwise.  I saw how accepting the sport is to all types of people, no matter their background, age, belief, or fitness level.  It is an encouraging sport; it makes you more confident about yourself.  It makes you appreciative of others.  It makes you understand the importance of encouraging others and seeing the value of everyone involved.  It makes you become a more determined person.  It makes you realize that in order to reach the goal you have to be willing to go through some pain.  It is a bonding sport, you develop close ties with your teammates, maybe it’s because they see you at your worst and at your best, yet still encourage you to push through.  I’m sure there are many other lessons I have learned by participating in roller derby, too many to list.

As much as I love the sport, there comes a time when you have to hang up the fishnets.  This is where I am at.  I have many things going on in my life right now and I have other opportunities arising.  Will I ever put on the fishnets and skates and hit the track again?  Who knows, for right now though, I feel led to use my nets to catch another passion of mine.  It’s very tough to lay down something you’ve grown to love, but it will always make me smile when I think about it.

 
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Posted by on September 10, 2011 in Sports

 

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